You can absolutely apply to Atlas if you already have a Stripe account, and (without interrupting use of that account) can use your new Atlas company as the owner of the account and take payouts from it into your own bank account.
(It's under Business Details in your Stripe Dashboard; same process as usual.)
1 (800) 273-8255. Call this number. They are the national suicide prevention hotline. The are lovely people. They've heard it all. I've called them several times over the years. It's hard to talk to them, it might be a few minutes of silence. But it's worth it. They are there to help.
You're making the first step in the right direction. Seeking help. To be cliche, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Life sucks a lot sometimes. And sometimes we need help to get through the worst of it. But keep fighting. You're worth it.
Nearby quakes, faults, movement visualization, etc.
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