This is actually pretty interesting, not necessarily because I think it provides any particularly profound insights, but because it gives an indirect account of how Thiel sees himself. Being an extreme insider and yet at the same time an extreme outsider implies a polarizing personality. For someone to think they see this trait in themselves is seemingly a contradiction, it's almost doublethink to consider oneself both repulsive and charismatic at the same time, or both an idiot savant and a polymath.