When I read these stories, I occasionally try to imagine how it would feel for any of my children to be not there. I can never get too far, just the beginnings themselves are too powerful for me. It is like cracking open the doors to a horrible world and simply peeking through the tiny gap is enough pain. Unimaginable how bad it is for those for whom it is a reality of every waking moment for the rest of their lives.
I have the same feelings. When I start to wonder, I instantly have teary eyes and have to stop myself from thinking about it. I just can’t. It must be hell.